Dark, cold, empty, lifeless, and indifference is what comes to mind as I feel myself slip away from the crowds. As I’m hiding in the shadows, I gain an ability to observe the mass by an outsider’s perspective and see how strange I am compared to them. My appearance, thoughts, outlooks, interests, all seem foreign to those of an average being. Trying to find my own spot in society just constantly comes to taunt me, saying that I’ll never be normal. Though I’m aware that I am not completely isolated, the dreading feeling of being cast away and alone builds up in my stomach to the point where it frustrates me. Yet at the same time, I realize, deep down, that the barren, harsh, and empty swelling in my chest is just a reflex that I am different, and that is normal. As a single individual in society struggling it’s as if “All things in the land are isolate; there is no confusion in objects in the eye, but one hill, one tree, or one man.”


Normal is Different, Different is Normal

Once upon a time, while a herd of mighty mustangs were racing across the meadows into the sunset, they came upon a pure milk white colt in the nearby flower fields. Out of curiosity and pity they decided to take in the baby and raise him as one of their own. Although the new child grew and adapted to the herd quite quickly, he was still having difficulties fitting in the group. First off, he had an albino shine in his coat, unlike the glossy chocolate mustangs’. The young incomer also couldn’t eat plants but Skittles, and whenever he’d fart or poop he’d have small rainbows & butterflies out instead. To top his insecurities he had, he was growing a sharp nudging horn on his forehead. Soon the pain of being laughed at and splitting headache growing made him run away from the herd. He ran all the way to a mystical waterfall, where he was shocked not only because of the sight but of the fact that a pack of creature that looked like him were gathered there. While mesmerized, a nearby adult galloped towards him and asked if something were wrong. The lad asked, “What am I?”; he was responded with, “Why, a unicorn of course.” Still bewildered he questioned once more, “B-but, I’m not normal…?”. Yet again he was given simple but wise words, “Normal? What is normal? To only do what the masses do? And what is the benefit of that? Where is the problem in adopting a custom that is ‘abnormal’ if it has no negative effect on the world at large?”

Tell Me Your Wish

Since the moment you were born, you were destined to die. As you took in your first breath of air, the timer of your lifespan has already begun. You started learning and exploring the world around you, and you simply knew without anyone telling you that you had to make the most out of life. It was unspoken, silent, yet true that one strives to struggle as much as they possibly can to achieve what they desire. I have yet not understood what is it that I desire the most. Dreams? Goals? Deep Desires? I don’t know, because I have none. Money? Fame? Beauty? Popularity? Love? Pleasure? I do not yearn for any of those. I can’t say that I’m selfless, due to the fact that I also have “likes” and “favorites”. However to say I have something in mind with utmost resolve would be a lie. Many things in mind is a lie but I’d rather keep my mouth shut, smile, and mock the hypocrites. What I desire? To find a purpose. To be happy. All of what a human heart only wants: to finally find someone, whether a stranger or friend, to be able to thaw my empty, cold heart and show me that there is warmth in this beautifully cruel world as long I desire it.  Continue reading

Sugar, Spice, and a Hint of Iron

Within our daily lives we tend to go by nonchalantly without so a second thought as what our problems may be, such as:  money, relationships, activities, or our main concern and priority to safety is our health. People nowadays either see eating as a waste a time and only a period to gain energy or a luxury to enjoy pleasant moments with our taste buds. However in order to fully appreciate a good meal one must come to the basic needs of a healthy meal, for example iron, which is commonly missed in meals.  Continue reading

Knowledge is Power

For centuries, society has placed great value on the attirement of knowledge as a means of understanding the world. As a result, many made it their life’s goal to attain as much information as possible, assuming that this will bring them status and admiration and therefore, contentment. However the pursuit of knowledge doesn’t always coincide with the pursuit; a universal desire. In fact, the common saying that “Ignorance is bliss”, indicates that often times, it is those who opened a Pandora’s box.

“All you need in this life is ignorance and confidence; then success is sure.”

– Mark Twain

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Fate Within Our Stars

For a long period of my life I’ve always been interested in the works of astronomy and how the concept of how the way the constellations formed an idea of who we are by birth. Though I have never believed as to what the definitions of the stars may say to be true, I find it fascinating on how a detailed system is able to describe our place and abilities as from we are born. Now most people might know this as a silly way to state “who you are”, however, it goes back to the ancient times of the Greeks where the astronomers brilliantly created a stylized map of the heavens. With this, based off of positions and sensitive angles of the Sun, Moon, planets, and stars, they were able to represent the aspects from the time we are born.

“We are born at a given moment, in a given place and, like vintage years of wine, we have the qualities of the year and of the season of which we are born. Astrology does not lay claim to anything more.”

-Carl Jung

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Alice in Tokyoland

Um I, um well, I’ve never been good at expressing my thoughts and feelings, but I guess I’ll do my best. So lately I’ve been looking around at amazing (Asian) places such as Tebo lounge, Creamistry, Gen, Daiso, and 85 degrees. Then one day, while I was randomly searching up Korean dramas and etc, I came across a interesting place called: Alice in Tokyoland. As if it weren’t good enough by having just said that it was in Tokyo, Japan there are small hidden areas full of parks, restaurants, and shops all relating to Alice in Wonderland; Alice in Wonderland has been one of my all-time favorites. Japan, with its all-around awesome craziness, has yet again made me a fangirl of its culture, food, animation, technology, and lifestyle. This original and unique concept, with its stores, restaurants, museums, and theme parks, makes everyone who travels through feel as if they’re Alice themselves.  Continue reading